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That bug that I’m just now getting over has really sucked the life out of me!

Yesterday and today, if it weren’t for having to go into work, I could have slept all day long.

I must have reset my alarm clock about a half dozen times because for the life of me, I just couldn’t seem to get up out of bed and wake up.

Even now, I’m struggling to wake up at this moment.

Talk about complete burn out or what?

Theres’ so much to get caught up on and things around the pad to have done also. Vacuuming, dishes, watering the plants, and the list goes on, but I can’t seem to muster the energy to do even the simplest things.

I’m dragging my ass around work too. Work being the problem I think.

I believe the thought of being stuck there until I find a better job is bringing me down and burning me out.

I haven’t even been on the computer  a whole lot either, as watching TV is the only thing that I can muster up enough energy to do.

I’ve got an alright schedule for the next two weeks, so hopefully I’ll manage to come around. I’ll be starting at 10PM Wednesday through Saturday and ending at 3, 4, and 6am on those days. It’s not the best hours, but at least I’m not finding myself getting home and going to bed just to get up again a few hours later to go back in.

I really need a better job though. Last night I was putting a large pail of chopped veggies on the shelf in the Veggie cooler and my tennis elbow decided to tell me that I’m lifting something that’s a bit to high and caused me to drop the stuff all over the floor. That shit fucken hurts when it zaps you like that. What ever you might be holding at the time, when it sparks up on you like that, you can’t hold on to because the pain is really intense and so sharp, you automatically drop whatever your holding in order to stop the pain.

Those who have advanced tennis elbow know exactly what I’m talking about. I just fear the day it happens when I’m lifting a scalding hot pot of something.

Well, the coffee seems to be helping out a bit now. I should set up my PVR to record LOST and Survivor while I’m at work.

Wow! This is the most I’ve written in over a week!

How do you like me now?

Even though I haven’t actually moved out of Canada, it sure felt like it the other day.

There were five cooks on the line at work and four of the five were Chinese. I felt so Alienated. They were talking away and not one English word was spoken. I just continued to work at my job and just kept saying to myself, “Lets get this day over with.”

Then later on four of the five cooks decided to share dinner and eat. I was not one of them, I was not even asked or offered. Nice huh?

I just continued to work away. I felt like I was no longer in my own country. Maybe I should move back to Canada and get a better job. A better one that I won’t feel so used.

It seems like as long as I don’t speak Chinenglish I’m not any use. I say this because, while I work away in pain from my tennis elbow and do my job despite of the pain, the Chinese guys get pampered.

I’m not saying they get catered to, but for example; Here I am, in a position that causes me great pain. Pain from lifting and twisting my arms causing the Tennis Elbow to get inflamed and cause some pretty nasty pain. Then there is this NEW Chinese cook that was hired on recently to work the Graveyard Shift with the rest of us. This NEW Chinese cook was always getting very sleepy halfway though his shift. He would go on about how hard it was for him to stay awake and how sleepy he was.

Some of you may already know that I wanted to be placed on the Garde Manger position for several reasons, mainly the one that would involve me not being in so much pain because there’s not a lot of things that would involve lifting and twisting of the arms, the others are because it’s something I would actually enjoy, and think I would be very good at.

Well, didn’t they go and move MR. Sleepy Chinese Cook to that position because he was always too sleepy to work the Line at night. It wasn’t because he was bad at working the line because he was the first one that did pretty good for his first few days there. That really got to me and I immediately started a job hunting campaign. Unfortunately, it’s not going very well. But I still have my fingers crossed.

So I figure if I get another job, I’ll be back in Canada, have better hours, have a life again, and get back to my side projects, and also start posting them fun games again.

Yup, I’ve been thinking about doing the ‘Friday Night Flip Off’ again, but with a new name, and also the ‘WTF Is That?’ game. The only thing that’s keeping me from them is the current job.

I wish I could just win the Lottery and get this all over with. I really, really do!

HOLY COW!

I was in pain all frigging night from this damn Tennis Elbow.

It felt like my arms were about to fall off. The pain was very unbearable at some points that I had to just stop what I was doing and cross my arms.

I could actually feel my heart beating in them and with every beat there was the sharp pain.

This is just another reason why I need another line of work, this pain gets worse each day that I work at my present job. I don’t know what I’ll do if I don’t get this new job, I really don’t.

There were times last night that I just wanted to walk out of there and come home. The pain was that intense.

I popped about 6 ibuprofen in the 8 hour shift that I worked and they really didn’t help, well they probably did by reducing the pain from what it would be if I didn’t take them, but the pain was still strong.

Now that I’m home the pain is going away, THANK GOD!

Having really bad tennis elbow and doing a job that involves a lot of lifting and twisting of the arms is not the greatest combination in the world. It gets fucking painful!

This is not going to be privately protected this time. So if somebody from work ends up reading this, so be it. I can’t beat around the bush anymore, especially after a Doctors visit last Monday.

I had to go see the Doc’ again to get em’ to re-write a prescription for an arm brace for my right arm. She accidentally wrote the previous one for the left arm and even though I suffer from Tennis Elbow in both arms it is my right arm that I use the most at work and the job that I am doing requires a lot of lifting and twisting of the arm.

Well anyway, while the Doc’ was interviewing me, it concluded that an arm brace may not even help if I am continuing to do the same thing that is causing the problem in the first place. But in the same time if no treatment is given, it will become chronic and  difficult to get rid of. Some folks at work say that I should have some cortisone injected and I had mentioned this and the Doc’ said that it will have little effect since my case is to sever. What these injections are, basically are steroids, and are something given withing the first couple of months, but I have went far to long I guess. Plus, I don’t like steroids, I take enough of them in my Asthma Puffers, and they alone give me the shakes n’ tremors and I hate that.

We got to talking about the job and how all these old ailments are kicking up again like they did the last few months I worked there before, and The Doc’ is saying the same thing as before, “It’s obviously not the job you should be doing.” I agreed, but I had hopes of changing positions. We all know how well that went.

With that on my mind, the stress ended up hitting me on Wednesday, and if you are or know somebody who suffers from GERD, knows just how great stress is on that condition. As you may have read with my GERD TURD post. I didn’t go into details because at the moment, I was in a bit of pain as you can imagine. It Didn’t clear up till I got home on Friday Morning. My throat is all raw from the acidic burning, and if you know about GERD then you know that laying down to sleep is very difficult as the stomach acids trickle out of your throat and so on. Don’t want to get into details, as it is actually kinda disgusting to talk about. But I didn’t get a whole lot of sleep Wednesday Night.

So Thursday I managed to cope with the pain and burning and went to work, and that night I made a stupid decision and thought it wasn’t that cold out to take some pails of grease to the grease trap out back. Well it was a bad idea and I had to deal with an Asthma attack for about half an hour because the very cold air combined with the overexerting from lifting the grease pails across the parking lot caused my lungs to clog up with goo.

While sitting in the staff room, trying to breath. I decided that I really have to find another job, because things don’t seem to be going to change there any time soon. I was thinking about applying for a job where Corey works. At least with my health ailments they won’t be an issue like they are becoming now.

This really sucks, since I really don’t mind working there. The co-workers are great to work with (Except for one) and we all get along great. But the Doc’ is right. Things need to change before they get any better.

So unless somebody from work reads this, I’m going to be hush-hush about this until I have  another job lined up and I will give my notice. I don’t want to say anything yet, because I can’t be 100% certain of a new job yet, and I don’t want to be bringing it up when I’m not 100% sure of what’s going to happen. But in the event somebody actually reads this and want to confront me about it, that’s OK too. I don’t have anything to hide, it’s just that it obvious that things aren’t going to work out unfortunately. I’ll just repeat everything I have said here, as it is pointless to talk about it any further.

The bottom line is, things need to change or things will end up worse for me and I can’t let that happen. So on Monday, I’ll be filling out my application and submitting it to Corey workplace, since they’re looking for people right now.

It’s unfortunate it has had to come down to this.