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I was off all day yesterday and didn’t have the energy or motivation to do anything at all.

Today I’m feeling the same way.

I was going to work on a video I started the other night, but never actually got around to it. I was going to do the same today but I just can’t seem to get myself in the mood to do anything.

Yesterday I ended up just watching TV and Movies. When I ran out of movies to watch I channel surfed on the TV not really watching anything, since there was nothing really interesting to watch anyway.

Last night I wasn’t even in the mood to cook a simple meal, so I spent what little money I had on a Pizza Delivery from Greco. I had a few sliced of Pizza and Garlic fingers and then went back to watching TV, passing in and out of consciousness.

Speaking of Pizza. I’m going to have to heat up some here in a minute. 

I should blame it on the weather, it’s been really gloomy and cold the past few days.  And when it’s not, I’m stuck inside a windowless call center listening to fucking retards who think the cell phone company they subscribe to owes them everything and never mind the fact it’s a business. Or the ones who can’t even operate a cell phone, speak English, don’t know their mobile number, their address, their name, their birth date, or why they’re even calling me in the first place.

Yea, it’s the depressing job too, I’m pretty sure that’s the main problem.

Speaking of job. I’m only working a 4 hour shift tonight. What the point of even going in for 4 hours? Yet they schedule me till after the last bus runs, so they must think I have money to pay for expensive cab drives to get home from a 4 hour shift. 

I’ll be starting a half hour early and leaving for my bus drive at 10pm. I have no money to spend on cab drives. I just have bus tickets. If they have to write me up, then so be it. I already asked if they could at least meet me halfway and not schedule me past 10pm. Fuck em’

It’s no wonder that I’m burnt out.

Well, I’m hungry and have some Pizza to chow down on.

TTFN!

I stayed up till about 5am this morning watching Movies and TV shows. For some reason I didn’t feel tired enough to sleep so I just watched the boob tube all night not realizing how late it was getting.

So since I didn’t go to bed till after 5am, I didn’t get up out of bed till 12pm. I got my coffee but it just doesn’t seem to be helping. I’m still feeling a bit groggy. Not in a sense of being sleepy, but rather not having the energy to do anything.

A quick shower will probably help, but I have absolutely no motivational energy to do even that! With the way I feel right now, I could probably sit on the futon and stare at the walls and do absolutely nothing all day and I wouldn’t feel the least bit bored. I bet I could actually watch grass grow right now. Provided there weren’t several feet of snow on the ground right now.

It’s actually nice and sunny outside right now and it’s hovering above the freezing mark at 5°C at the moment. Some fresh air could probably help too, but that would require energy, somthing I have none of at the moment.

I have to go next door to pick up a few things at the grocery store and even that seems to be something I don’t  want to do.

Talk about a bad case of burn out. I have to manage to drag my ass into the shower to help get out of this mood. Just thinking about it makes me yawn and want to just lay down and take a nap.

I hate feeling like this.

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I still hate my job

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This is exactly how I feel. This morning was one of them mornings… wait a minute, make that every morning that I felt just like this kitty cat.

You know you have to get up, but the energy levels only come in waves so you end up slowly making your way out of bed, one energy boost at a time.

Being off of work for 4 days makes it even harder to get up out of bed.

Now for the next three nights I will be working the late shift. Tonight from 5pm till 1am, then 1:30pm till 9:30pm, and then back to 5pm till 1am on New Years Eve.

I’m off NY Day, so maybe I’ll get a few NY Beers in me when I get home NY Eve.

It’s going to be one of those days. It started straight from the get go.

Alarm went off and it was near impossible to get my lazy ass out of bed to turn it off. Then as soon as I did that, it felt like somebody back handed me from the inside of my tempels.

So now I’m feeling really groggy and I’ve got a splitting headache. THe head hurts so bad that I’m feeling sick to the stomach.

Well, I need to get going.

I owe! I owe, so it’s off to work I go.

Yup. That’s right. You read that correctly. I really think the aliens abducted me while I was asleep last and took me for a spin around the third rock.

Well, that’s the only thing I can think of why I am so beat tired right now. I’ve been dragging my ass around the place all day trying to wake up. My eyelids are really heavy as if I didn’t sleep a wink at all.

I think I got around 8 hours sleep, so I really shouldn’t be so sleepy.

So I think the aliens took me up for a joyride in their spacecraft and after we were all partied out, they wiped my memory of the whole event and beamed me back into my bed seconds before I woke up today.

I wonder if they let me take the ship for a little spin while we were having fun. Did we go cow tipping, and spook out the UFO Freaks? I wish they would let me remember these events, at least that way I would understand why I am so frigging tired right now.

I’m actually so tired still I am actually starting to get a head ache. The coffee isn’t helping out either.

Damn! This is going to be a long night at work.

Hmm, maybe it was the walk I took yesterday?

That bug that I’m just now getting over has really sucked the life out of me!

Yesterday and today, if it weren’t for having to go into work, I could have slept all day long.

I must have reset my alarm clock about a half dozen times because for the life of me, I just couldn’t seem to get up out of bed and wake up.

Even now, I’m struggling to wake up at this moment.

Talk about complete burn out or what?

Theres’ so much to get caught up on and things around the pad to have done also. Vacuuming, dishes, watering the plants, and the list goes on, but I can’t seem to muster the energy to do even the simplest things.

I’m dragging my ass around work too. Work being the problem I think.

I believe the thought of being stuck there until I find a better job is bringing me down and burning me out.

I haven’t even been on the computer  a whole lot either, as watching TV is the only thing that I can muster up enough energy to do.

I’ve got an alright schedule for the next two weeks, so hopefully I’ll manage to come around. I’ll be starting at 10PM Wednesday through Saturday and ending at 3, 4, and 6am on those days. It’s not the best hours, but at least I’m not finding myself getting home and going to bed just to get up again a few hours later to go back in.

I really need a better job though. Last night I was putting a large pail of chopped veggies on the shelf in the Veggie cooler and my tennis elbow decided to tell me that I’m lifting something that’s a bit to high and caused me to drop the stuff all over the floor. That shit fucken hurts when it zaps you like that. What ever you might be holding at the time, when it sparks up on you like that, you can’t hold on to because the pain is really intense and so sharp, you automatically drop whatever your holding in order to stop the pain.

Those who have advanced tennis elbow know exactly what I’m talking about. I just fear the day it happens when I’m lifting a scalding hot pot of something.

Well, the coffee seems to be helping out a bit now. I should set up my PVR to record LOST and Survivor while I’m at work.

Wow! This is the most I’ve written in over a week!

How do you like me now?

OK, I have to make this quick, so I can get some sleep before the window rippers arrive.

Remember the part about me trying to get off early from work? Well I asked if it would be OK and I never really got an answer, so I brought it up again and explained what the hell was happening.

Instead of helping a guy out, they preferred to keep me there as either eye candy or just to be an ass.

IMO, there was no need for me to be there for the full shift because it wasn’t really THAT busy. Sure it might have been a bit busy for one less person, but not insanely busy.

So with that said.

“Go ahead, ask me for a favor. Go on! Just try it!”

As you can imagine, I’m really pissed off right now.

What goes around, comes around.